I want to talk
I have a quiz in less than an hour. Have gone through the slides, skimmed through the cases and didn’t bother to read the readings or the chapters in the text book. A younger me would scoff at the older and more experienced me for doing this, but the older me knows better. Its no use.
I feel terribly wound up inside, like a spring waiting to recoil, but I don’t know who or what should be the trigger? What has led to this insane degree of turmoil on the inside. There was a time when I thought I had mastered my emotions and as Kipling put it, learnt to “treat those two imposters (success and failure) just the same”. But alas, I realize with time, that emotions are tough to gain total control over. I seem to have gained control over happiness, but depression refuses to yield to reason. The reason of cold logic, that this too shall pass, doesn’t seem to work any more.
And I sit scribbling on the web with 40 minutes to go before a quiz, to get my brain aligned to my work.
The title of the post is such a misnomer, I really don’t want to talk to anyone any more. Just sit and reason and go somewhere, where the context of the world doesn’t bother my existence. Where I am free from everything and everyone around me.
